why?

Ok I don't know why am I writing this, am I paapu lokhande or i am attention seeker or am i expecting something from”always be friends” why am i expecting ? From at least 3 years 1 call or 1 mail , why? I always felt that I am like (in marathi) “bandgul” or parasite for this group am I? Someone will say what’s big deal? Leave it let me do something, belated happy birthday to me from myself “wow it feels so great to do this.”
I admit I am also unaware of birthdays of many people in our group but every time somebody or other knows whom can inform others. If somebody forgets it’s different case , but thing is how many people do know? Yesterday everybody were asking so whats the plan going with friends, today when I entered office question was ‘so had fun with friends? I’ had no answer?’ Cant i expect this much? Haan sameer there was one more jayanti yesterday. Ok now nothing can be done? So forget this post Lots more in write but cant , go to work all you busy people. let me enjoy happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me............